Wasted time, and why Star Trek isn't helping.

I'm not sure if this has happened to anyone else, but I'm finding myself becoming a characture.

The offerings of a modern world upon a 17 year such as myself are amazing, something that anyone from any previous generation would marvel at, and yet I am apathetical towards all of them.

Those from the previous generations already had what I miss most, and what drives me away from the offerings that are within my reach.

I have wondered around my house for 2 days now, talking to no one other than a very old friend of mine by text, who seems not to keen on texting ever since an issue of the topic of romantic feeling came up between us last month.

Looking back upon the texts I have sent it seems all to clear that my desperation is showing.

It just seems that after a moment of romantic physical, or emotional contact with another human being, for the next few weeks all of the normal things I do when I'm at home are written off as wasted time, and theyre for unsatisfieing.

Today I watched 6 back to back episodes of the original Star Trek purely to see what all the fuss was about, knowing that in doing so, I had become a characture of a lonely person who stays at home.

This does not mean by any chance that I will never have a moment of romantic contact again, but it rather means that I do not see it happening in the near future.

It sounds sad to admit, but I enjoy the themes of fantasy presented to me in games like Final Fantasy 9, in the same way I enjoy themes presented in Books, Star Trek has come as a welcome change to my usual diet of Nerdist activities, but although I appreciate it was groundbreaking for its time, I believe being so young I cant appreciate its full nature, as the groundbreaking things about it are in a lot of texts I have seen from more modern texts, theyre is a small inkling in the back of my head that says that I enjoy it far more than I should considering the low standard of definition and computer effects that I'm seeing, in the same feeling of hope that I get when I watch the 4th, 5th & 6th Star Wars films.


I'm still not seeing why people would want to make it thier Religion though, and please don't let yourself think I'm a nerd, I shall post various other things that would make evidence contrary to this belief.

Whats odd is all the things I do when I'm not at home, seem like they happen to a different person.
And the version of myself that stays at home remains a lonesome fool who doesnt get out much.

Rally' Ho!